A lil' bump~

Its been a while.

A LOOOOOOOONNNNNGGGG while~

How many years has it been? Probably close to five years since I posted anything here. Not sure. Many things happen between now and then.

Where to start? I graduated with a diploma in hand, found work as a draftsman and not long after that promoted as a clerk of work at a construction site. Things were going smooth back then, too smooth. I picked up scale modeling along the way, made new connections and what not. Then after the contract ended, things really went down from there.

Not having any immediate job I went ahead with another company as a draftsman again at the suggestion of my friend, But the environment there was very stressful, not because of the work pressure but the whole office dynamics and unreasonable demands. Call it a lack of professionalism on both the company and myself. After nearly a year I quit, thinking of taking my degrees next. But I didn't finish it, perhaps I was not on the right mindset. Maybe what I actually wanted to do was to escape the previous stressful environment. Basically I didn't handle it well, and that carried on to the latest employment I was in. That too, didn't last long...

Its been a few months now, but I'm getting by with support of my family and friends plus the few odd jobs I get now and then.
I met a group of guys, supportive and cool to each other but none of that toxic behavior like back stabbing and what not. Their positivity was what helped me get my head straight. I never felt that good for so long that we're basically a brotherhood by now. Good people with good backgrounds of their own too.

So, should I blame that company that really gave me a headache? Nah, not really. I blame myself for being naive, too idealistic in a world where people would do anything to get what they want. I blame myself for not preparing myself well in advance, for being too lenient and spoiled. You know what they say about experiences, it really taught me important lessons in my, previously sheltered, life.

What now you might ask? Well, my birthday is coming soon and I can't believe I'll be 26 years old by then. If I were to plan my life right back then, I could have built a good career by now and begin to think of setting up businesses. Get married too. But I think that's something akin to fantasy by now. For now I will be rebuild myself again, starting by getting a proper job and later on making a career from it. Also not to work hard, but work smart as well. Put those life lessons I just learned to good use and make up for the time lost fooling around to live my life right this time around.

I'm sure by now this seems more than just a lil' bump and its probably going to be that way. Lately in my free time I have discovered a passion for doing mechanical designs, especially cars. Found this website as well as Scott Robertson's Youtube videos and learned a few things from there that will benefit me not just for technical mechanical drawings but to my anime/manga sketches as well.

Did I mentioned that I picked up scale modeling as a hobby? I wonder if its ok if I would upload pictures of them here. Do tell if anyone want to see my work. Its not spectacular, nothing out of the ordinary. I am still a beginner myself, but I would like to hear feedback on where I did good and where I need improvements. As for poetry, I felt like I have become rusty in my writings as it might be evident from this journal (lol) but I will take note when I do have that occasional sparks of inspiration. This goes for my drawings as well.

Can't believe I spent all night typing this down that its morning now. Just finished doing detail painting on a scale model car commissioned by my friend before typing this, so I think I will end it here for now. Looking forward to be active again and hoping for a good return next year as I go about rebuilding my life. The same goes to you guys and til next time, cheers!